A Love Letter to Her....

b4 i start...i would like 2 remind all dat dis letter is juz a letter written by me 2 whoever is concern 2 me & dat it is not 2 ALL...so pls do not give any silly comments...if u would like 2 give anything but proper comments 4 dis post, ur silence is best required...

To HER,

I don't know if you will ever recieve this letter or what will you do with it when you do recieve it. Will you open it and read it's contents? Or will you just throw it in the bin without so much as a glance or read. However, what I do and only ask from you is thatyou do open the letter and read it. What you wish to do with it in the end is fine with me. My heart is and will be content to know that you have read the letter from me.

When I first saw you, it was just like any other normal day. What I saw was a beautiful and innocent girl standing before me. At that time, nothing really special really struck me. The feeling in me then was mutual and normal. I just wanted to get to know you and at least be friends. I wasn't harbouring any special thoughts or feelings then. Indeed my wish came true. I got to know your name and some things about you. Friends we became.

Soon came the time to say goodbye. Or should I say I said goodbye first. Did I leave too soon? Was it the right time to say goodbye? That I will never know. But I sure as hope now that it never happen. Because it was after we parted that my feelings started to grow towards YOU. Don't ask me how, why or when. I don't know and that is the truth. The feeling just came. You can say it struck me like a hard blow. I found myself falling for YOU. I kept or rather an image of YOU, kept appearing in my head. Every SECOND, MINUTE, HOUR and DAY. Believe me, I tried my very best to clear YOU out of my head. Tried my best to convince myself that I was shitting myself, in my own fantasy, telling myself that the feelings for YOU were not true. BUT, ALAS, I slowly begain to realise and accept that I WAS IN LOVE WITH YOU.

I really was lost then. I didn't know what to do. Should I let my feelings be known to YOU? If so, how should I do it? When should I do it? OR, should i just keep in ME? Let it ROT inside ME? Let me carry the PAIN inside my HEART? I went from the cheerful me to a different ME. Something was bothering ME. People around me notice. I just told them nothing was wrong. THOUGH, in my HEART...I knew what it was. Finally, I decided to express my feelings to YOU. maybe it was because I couldn't stand the pain anymore.

When I told you of my feelings for you, I really expected you to laugh. OR even tell me to dream on. OR worse, REJECT me. I didn't expect you to say you weren't ready to have a boyfriend yet. I tried to convince you to give it OR rather ME, a chance to prove myself WORTHY of YOU. Your answer was still the same . You were not ready. So, I said I will wait. Wait until YOU are READY.

Now, I when I look at YOU, I no longer see a beautiful and innocent girl. I see more than that. It would probably fill up PAGES if I were to list down all. In short, YOU are SPECIAL. OR rather, I see & feel something special in you.

I will be taking my STPM this year. I know that I'm suppose to put all my attention and focus towards this IMPORTANT test. I know that I should forget YOU, for the time being. BUT, I can't. I really CAN'T. So, I tell myself now that I must do well...DO WELL for YOU. Maybe then you will be ready. OR maybe then you will already have someone else in you heart. That I don't know. Only TIME will tell. BUT, I do know this. Whatever it is, I will wait for YOU.

I am convinced that my LOVE for YOU is TRUE, because the longer I am away from you, the greater is my yearning to be with you again. You are my PRINCESS, and I am your devoted and faithful PRINCE. I cherish any thought of you, prize any memory of you that rises from the depths of my mind, and live for the day when YOU finally accept me as YOURS. Until that moment arrives, I send to you across the miles, my tender love, my warm embrace, and my most passionate kiss .

Finally, I hope you will have read this letter and that it touches DEEP into your HEART.

WITH THOUSANDS of LOVE and KISSES,
EUGENE...